Friday, October 29, 2010

It's all personal

"Don't take it personally."  

"No offense, but..."

"...just kidding!"

All of these phrases are such cop outs.  If you're doing or saying something rude or offensive, it's going to be taken personally and you're probably hurting someone's feelings.  

Recently, I've been working non-stop.  My work days are 11 hours long and I work 7 days a week.  It's all ending next week, and I don't think I'll be taking on another second job for a while.  I miss my free time and I miss choosing how I spend it.  Well, I suppose I still choose how to spend my extremely limited free time, but I prefer to be with friends and I have to basically "ration" myself in order to see each group of friends.

I have a couple of different groups of friends: the soro-sisters, the friends from high school, the friends from college, and the friends from my childhood as well as random strangers I meet and befriend.  They get their own category.  So that's five groups of friends that don't really know each other and therefore my time between them is split.

Since I've had to "ration" my free time I haven't been seeing each group of friends as much and I feel a little forgotten and left out by some of them.  I know there's the whole out-of-sight, out-of-mind thing, but friendships are really important to me, and when I feel left out or unwanted I usually get really quiet when I'm around them and slowly drift away from that group.  I like to know that my presence is wanted and that (especially when my time is limited) it's appreciated.  I don't want a parade with a full band and multiple flower covered floats announcing my arrival (although let's be honest, I wouldn't be against it), but remembering me when plans are made would be nice.

I don't feel wanted or loved or appreciated by some of my friends, and that's not right or acceptable.

Plain and simple, my feelings are hurt. 


On a much lighter and happier note:


I have some of my very favorite memories from college (and life!) with this girl.  She is my sorority sister, college roommate, and best friend.  She is one of the best friends I could ever have asked for and I am so incredibly blessed to have her in my life.  I know that she has made me a better person and I am so thankful for her.  Love you B.C!!
Fall 2005 First ADPi Party

OU Weekend 2008

Spontaneous Pumpkin Patch Photoshoot

Christmas Card 2008
Britney Concert!!!

NOLA 2010