Friday, April 22, 2011

This is a perfect moment

It embodies complete happiness to me.  I love the yellow dress of the woman and the genuinely surprised smile of the bride.  It's wonderful!

Says the bride: “This was the only moment of anxiety all day: I was late to make my entrance into the church, and everyone was waiting. The street was empty except for this vibrant stranger, an old lady who was clapping and shouting ‘Congratulations!’ over and over. She made me smile."

Thursday, April 21, 2011

"It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live"

I never thought I'd be where I am right now struggling to pay my bills, living on my own, dating and not married.  I had this perfect vision of my life that I'd carried with me throughout high school and college.  In fact, when I was in high school our teacher my junior year had us write a letter to our future self outlining the dreams and aspirations we had five years down the road.  And in my letter?
  • college degree
  • married
  • living in my own house
  • great job
  • maybe kids
That's obviously not the case now.  Currently I'm
  • a college graduate
  • single
  • renting an apartment with a roommate
  • great job, but I have to get a second one to cover my bills
  • four-legged child
So I'm 1 for 4.  I'm not happy where I am now, but I'm not too upset about it either.  I would say I'm more complacent.  I enjoy my life.  I have a wonderful group of friends, and while they have no idea what I'm really going through, I know that they're supportive of me.  I also really love my job and the people I work with.  I've been given wonderful opportunities at work and the doors keep opening for me to continue to do more.  That is such a blessing.  And I've dated great guys, but it's never worked out.  We either grow apart or, all too often, live apart.  I like a guy right now so much, but he lives in a different city.  I don't see how a relationship can blossom when I see the dude once a month, if that.  Plus, after my last relationship I told myself I'd never be in another long distance relationship.  This is never where I saw myself when I was the idealistic, carefree high school and college student.

I think I need to get out of this rut I'm in.  A big help would be to decrease the stress level, and that will come with a second job.  When I'm not constantly stressing over my money situation and having to borrow from my mom, I'll feel more independent.  Right now there's a tether continuing to hold me to my parents because I have to rely on them for gas, groceries and care for my dog.  I also think going to church more than once a month would be a big improvement on my attitude.  Church makes me happy.  Art also makes me happy whether I'm creating or enjoying it.  And singing!  Singing probably makes me the most happy.  I sing to my deaf dog all the time.  He loves it.  I swear.

Wish me luck on my job hunt for a second job!  It'll only be part time.  I'm thinking either bartending or working at a boutique.  It doesn't really matter what it is as long as this girl makes some money!  And fast!

[Quote from the late, great Albus Dumbledore; photos from We Heart It]

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

I love the sky

I don't think many people know that about me.  I think it's the most beautiful thing on Earth-- the sky. 

There's endless mystery.  I love that about it.  There could be worlds out there that could hold all the answers to all the questions we have here on Earth.  Is there a God?  Is there a cure for cancer?  For AIDS?  How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?

This video inspires me.  It's focus on the awesomeness of the sky, night or day, is stunningly and beautifully captivated by Terje Sorgjerd.


The Mountain from Terje Sorgjerd on Vimeo.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Bad mood

Why is that I can have an awesome weekend, a great end to the weekend and still wake up in a terrible mood?  Actually, I think I woke up in a good mood, but then as soon as I got to work, looked over my miserable finances for the rest of the month and got sass from a co-worker my mood did a 180 degree turn.

I'm so annoyed and angry right now.  My mom called and told me she didn't want to go to my favorite restaurant (Frank's) because she doesn't like hotdogs.  That made it worse.  Basically anything anyone does right now will probably piss me off.

You should probably stay away.  And I'll listen to Eva Cassidy's and Alex Park's covers of "Imagine" on repeat until I'm in a better mood.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Da EFF Bomb

I'm going to consciously try to not curse anymore.  I know, I know...Lent is almost over.  But this is more of a lifestyle change than a 40 days and 40 nights and then I'm going to start dropping Da EFF Bomb everywhere again.  Nope.  I'm going to try to never curse again.

I really like the F word though.  It's so incredibly useful to describe a multitude of feelings.  It's an adjective, verb and noun.  I love that. 

But alas, you have to quit sometimes, and today is that day. 

It's also Tax Day, so that's fun.  This article was really interesting.  It's about the crazy spending Congress is doing and their complete lack at actually making any budget cuts.  I don't want to get into politics, mostly because I don't feel like dealing with discussions with family that go round and round and don't matter anyway, but something has got to change.

Happy Friday!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

I want to change up my apartment

My room used to be very girl meets "antique-y leopard print" in college, and then when I was tired of that I changed it to girly meets really girly and spray painted a bunch of my stuff hot pink.  I loved it for about nine months but now I want to change it up again.

I'm thinking I want a white washed theme to my entire room.  I'll paint my furniture white and glaze it to give it a worn-in look.  Holly from Life in the Fun Lane is a blogger who has the cutest style and an even cuter little girl and makes the most gorgeous furniture.  She takes furniture she finds at thrift stores and makes them into works of art.  I'm taking my inspiration from her.  I don't think I'll be able to make my furniture look as fabulous as hers, but I'm going to give it a try!

I also want to try to DIY a mirror like this:
It's made with starfish, but my lovely friend, Lauren, suggested I spray paint sticks to achieve the same look.  I think that's a great idea!

And I love the look of this all white on white bed.  It looks so calming and serene--I need more of that in my life.  I'm a constant stress ball of emotions.

That's what I'm thinking so far for the bedroom.  I also want to tackle this project for my balcony.  I think I need some color out there.  Some bleeding hears and violets should do the trick, along with some pretty ferns.

Now to find the time to actually do all these projects!

Photos from Centsational Girl-- a great place to get inspiration!