I never thought I'd be where I am right now struggling to pay my bills, living on my own, dating and not married. I had this perfect vision of my life that I'd carried with me throughout high school and college. In fact, when I was in high school our teacher my junior year had us write a letter to our future self outlining the dreams and aspirations we had five years down the road. And in my letter?
- college degree
- living in my own house
- great job
- maybe kids
- a college graduate
- renting an apartment with a roommate
- great job, but I have to get a second one to cover my bills
- four-legged child
I think I need to get out of this rut I'm in. A big help would be to decrease the stress level, and that will come with a second job. When I'm not constantly stressing over my money situation and having to borrow from my mom, I'll feel more independent. Right now there's a tether continuing to hold me to my parents because I have to rely on them for gas, groceries and care for my dog. I also think going to church more than once a month would be a big improvement on my attitude. Church makes me happy. Art also makes me happy whether I'm creating or enjoying it. And singing! Singing probably makes me the most happy. I sing to my deaf dog all the time. He loves it. I swear.
Wish me luck on my job hunt for a second job! It'll only be part time. I'm thinking either bartending or working at a boutique. It doesn't really matter what it is as long as this girl makes some money! And fast!
[Quote from the late, great Albus Dumbledore; photos from We Heart It]